NAGPAHABOL PA! haha..
“..ang arte kasi..” parinig ni Jane. “..at pa-importante pa. Kawawa naman si Ralph. Bakit kasi pinagtanggol ka pa niya. See what he had in return. You’re a selfish bitch.” tiningnan ako ni ng walangya.
Tanggap ko na pa-importante at maarte ako.. Alam ko din sa sarili ko na selfish ako minsan.. pero ang manggaling sa babaeng to na BITCH ako, it’s not okay. NAKAKAINSULTO.. Sa dinami-dami ng pwedeng tumawag sa akin ng bitch, siya pa ang naglakas loob.
Shit lang ah. Ang sarap sabunutan o kaya lunurin sa bathtub e.
“..if i’m a selfish bitch, what are you?” lumapit ako sa kanya.. “..hmmm let me think..” I shrugged my shoulders.. “..wala akong maisip e.. because you’re always nothing compared to me.”
She cursed and cursed and cursed.
She called me bitch.. pinatunayan ko lang..
“What the hell is your problem?” I shouted. This girl is pissing me off.
“BOTH OF YOU, stop it.” Mae got between the two of us but Jane and I keep on cursing each other.
“DAMMIT! Will the two of you shut up!” Mae shouted..which is so new to all of us. “..just shut your big mouths and listen to me!”
Natahimik kaming lahat at tumingin kay Mae. Sabi nga nila, matakot ka kapag ang tahimik at mabait ang nagalit kasi hindi mo alam kung ano ang kaya nilang gawin.
SILENCE.. long silence.. No one dared to speak nor move.
Mae closed her eyes..took a deep breath and started to relax her tensed shoulders.
“..good.” she uttered with calmness.
And again, she controlled the scene.. she managed to shut us up.. and she calmed herself without the help of other people.. –for me, traits of a future leader. Iniisip ko nga, pwede sa pulitika tong bestfriend ko.
“Let’s call it a day.” she said. “..Donn, shoot natin ang solo part ni Alexis tomorrow night.. isama na din yung solo part ni Ralph. Meaning, we will shoot the first scene you were telling us earlier. Venue natin.. sa bahay nila Alexis.. ”
“..what?” sabay kaming nagsalita ni Jane. Nagkatinginan pa kaming dalawa pero hindi na naming binalak pang mag eskandalo.
“I know you heard it right.. Walang changes na magaganap.”
Half of the group disagreed.
“.. listen guys, we don’t have enough time to change anything. First, Paul and I already recorded the music that will be used. Papayag lang akong maging lead si Paul kung si Ralph ang kakanta sa video. And i know he can sing. That means, magrerecord uli. Paul’s effort will be wasted..so unfair, right?” Mae looked at Paul..
“She’s right, guys.. I wouldn’t be happy if that happens.”
“And.. if you want to use Paul’s voice and insist on making him the lead, that would be unfair to him and Ralph.. Paul got so many parts while Ralph got nothing..”
“Second, we already saw Ralph and Alexis do their job. And I KNOW.. or should I say, we all know that they performed well.. right, Donn?” Donn agreed without hesitation.
“I don’t want to have change of plans.. That is my decision as the group leader. But since I respect all of your opinions, you can disagree with what I want..” she said seriously. “Now, who’s with me?”
Donn was the first one to raise a hand.. then the whole group followed except Jane and I.
“Majority wins..”
———————–
I’m wearing a tank top and shorts for the music video. My hair — messy bun.. The scene is about me trying to draw someone–a guy’s face– but I can’t finish the image.. Ganun daw. ARTE.. haha. Mae brought few of my paintings and works inside my room..Nag-effort pang kunin sa Art room. Dagdag daw sa props.
Kinuhanan muna yung buong kwarto ko-then ako nagdo-drawing sa isang bondpaper-shape ng mukha ng lalaki-erase,erase-crample the paper-tapon sa basurahan-try again-another shape ng mukha-erase-erase-tapon..
Ilang beses ko ding inulit yung ganun, kasi iba-ibang angle yung kinukunan-close-up, meron ding kamay ko lang ang kinukuhanan,tapos nakasideview ako, tapos likuran ko lang.. shet. Kahit nga ata, pagtapon ko ng crampled paper sa basurahan, kinunan din. Hay.. complicated din palang gumawa ng ganito. Ayun, I didn’t have any problems dealing with this scene because the girl in the video is ME. I mean, I can relate to the situation of the girl so I don’t have to fake the emotions. In short, hindi lang ako umaarte nung time na yun. Natuwa naman si Donn dahil less than an hour tapos na yung scene sa akin.
Akala ko tapos na.. yun pala, may 2nd scene pa. Yun yung part na, ido-drawing ko daw yung mukha ni Ralph. Then they gave me a picture of him-head to chest lang ang nakikita. Probably, this photo was taken yesterday..narecognize ko kasi yung design nung shirt.
“Can you draw him?” Donn asked.
“..while all of you are here?” tiningnan ko yung mga classmates ko na nasa kwarto ko.. They’re 4 including Donn.. The others-Mae, Jane, etc- are with Ralph in the guest room. Dun naman kasi ang ‘kunwaring’ room ni Ralph.
“Of course.. and kukuhanan din yun e.”
“..you should pay me.. Artista na nga ako, magdodrawing pa ako.”
“..blame your bestfriend..” Donn said while fixing something in his laptop. “..it was her idea to make the lead girl a painter.. Kaya nga di ka pwedeng palitan ni Jane..and walang pwedeng pumalit sa’yo.. Although, pwede namang kamay mo lang ang kinukuhanan habang nagdadrawing, mas okay pa din yung nakikita talaga ni sir na nagdo-drawing ka. Sigurado, mas mataas grade natin. Halos lahat pa man din ng nasa group natin grade-conscious.. lalo na ako.”
Pahamak talaga kahit kailan yung si Mae.. TSK. What does she want ba?
Wala na akong nagawa kung hindi pumayag. Kinuha ko yung picture, humiga sa kama. Tiningnan ko nang maigi ang facial features ni Ralph. Pinag-aralan ko..
Ang buhok madali lang kaya bumaba na ang tingin ko sa mga mata niya.. His eyes.. naalala ko yung kahapon..the way he looked at me. It was like..err. EWAN. I couldn’t tell if it was just an act or what. shocks. Kahit sa picture lang, nakakapanabik ang mga mata niya.. My eyes traveled down..nose naman- pointed nose.. napansin ko na may parang scar–guhit na pahalang–sa nose bridge niya, sa gitna ng eyes. Hmm.. Lips.. He’s smiling in the picture. Kainis.. his smile makes him a lot cuter.. grabe.. Ibinaling ko na lang kaagad sa ibang parte ng mukha niya ang tingin ko.. Then I noticed there’s also a scar on the left side of his left eyebrow.
I wonder saan niya nakuha yung mga yun. HMP.
Paulit-ulit kong tiningnan yung picture.. Then I closed my eyes, checking if I can draw him without the help of any photo..
His hair, his forehead, his eyes,his nose, his lips, his face’s shape.. then back to the eyes.. his eyes..
Then may biglang pumasok sa utak ko..
I saw a young boy (around 11years old?), having the same light brown eyes, looking directly at me. We are inside a van?.. Magkatabi kami at nakatingin sa isa’t-isa. On his left side is a woman around 30′s.
“Who the hell are these people?” I thought.. I looked at my right side and found my mother smiling sweetly at me. Then another scene flashed before me.. I was holding a knotted thread bracelet..I gave it to the young boy beside me..I was looking at his eyes when I heard something.. Mahabang busina.. as in sobrang haba.. And so, tumingin ako sa harap..
May isang van..mabilis ang takbo.. And then I realized.. mababangga kami..
“Alexis!” I opened my eyes.. Basang-basa ako ng pawis.
“Mae.. sorry, nakatulog ako.” Umupo ako sa kama ko..Wala ng tao sa kwarto ko. Good. “..I had a weird dream.. yung aksidente kasama si Mommy.” I looked at my bestfriend.
“Ha? Ilang taon mo ng hindi napapanaginipan yun ah.”
“No. The dream I just had was different..”
“How come?” she sat beside me.
“..because there’s a woman around30′s and a kid.. an 11 year old, I think. I was looking at him..then I gave him a..” sumakit bigla ang ulo ko.. “Is he real? Kasama ba talaga siya nung naaksidente kami ni mommy? Who is he, Mae? Who the hell is he?” hawak ko yung ulo ko habang pinipilit ko ang utak kong alalahanin ang aksidente. SHT.. Ang sakit sa ulo.. pero kelangan kong maalala..
“Best, pagod lang yan..” hinawakan ni Mae ang balikat ko. “Di’ba nga, hindi mo pwedeng pilitin na alalahanin ang lahat.. babalik sa’yo yun ng kusa. Anyways, kain na tayo..”
—-
10pm.. Pinahatid ko kay Mang Rene lahat ng groupmates ko.. HAggard. Buti tapos na.. Next Saturday na uli ang susunod na shoot.
I decided to go to the garden.. Pa-pahangin lang. Lumapit ako sa isa sa mga benches malapit sa tinutuluyan nila Mang Rene.
Naalala ko yung surprise ni Gerald sa akin during our 1st year anniversary. Sa kinatatayuan ko kasi, dito nakalagay ang ‘Happy Anniversary’ dati. Surprisingly, thinking about it didn’t HURT. I realized, ngayon ko lang uli naisip si Gerald.. and I didn’t feel anything.. really.. wala na ba talaga akong pakialam sa kanya?
Biglang bumuhos ang malakas na ulan. GEEZ!
Kainis..Biglang buhos? Sana umambon muna diba?
Agad-agad akong sumilong sa tinutuluyan nila Mang Rene.. Dito na muna ako magpapatila.. (Parang ang layo ng bahay eh no? haha.) Eh kesa naman mabasa ako ng ulan at isa pa, wala namang tao dito kasi patay yung ilaw. Sinamahan ni Ralph ang tatay niya sa paghatid sa mga classmates namin.
Tapos lumakas yung hangin.. natatalsikan pa din ako.. so I decided to go inside the house.. Luckily, bukas yung pinto. Pumasok ako at kaagad isinara yung pinto para hindi pumasok yung tubig.
Ang dilim.. kinapa-kapa ko yung switch.. hindi ko makapa, where the hell is it?
Kung kelan ko nakapa ang switch,bigla ba namang may humawak sa kamay ko na nakapatong pa din sa switch ng ilaw. May bumulong sa tenga ko. Nakiliti pa ako.
“Anong ginagawa mo dito?” sabay lumiwanag ang buong paligid.
Si Ralph. Sht.
“Anong ginagawa mo dito?” inulit ko yung tinanong niya. I thought kasama siya ni Mang Rene.
“Matutulog na…” he answered..tapos lumayo siya nang kaunti sa akin. “Eh ikaw?”
Bakit nga ba ako nandito?
Damn. Kapag sinabi kong pinili kong dito magpatila ng ulan, baka kung anong isipin ng mokong na to.. WAHH..
“..ah, practice.” i told him. “..practice tayo.. eye-to-eye contact..” nauutal pa ako.. sht.
“..hindi ba pwedeng..bukas na lang?” he asked.. pansin kong bagong ligo siya kasi basa yung buhok niya. Tapos nakasando at boxers.. yes.. boxers lang.. siya..
“Okay..” buti na lang..whew. ”..aalis na ako.”
Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko. Napaharap tuloy ako sa kanya.
“Sige na nga, ngayon na lang..” binitiwan niya ako at umupo sa kama. Double deck yung kama dito sa bahay nila. Maliit lang pala talaga to.. studio type. “..umuulan pala sa labas. Wala namang payong dito.”
I didn’t say anything. I’m just standing in front of the door while at him.. Bakit pa kasi ako pumunta ng garden?
“So what now, princess?” he smirked.. “..practice na?” he stood up and started to walk towards me.
“Hoy!” he tapped my head slightly. “Akala ko ba magpapractice? Bakit nakatayo ka lang dyan?”
Sino ba ang hinayupak na nagbulong sa akin na nandito ako para magpractice?!
IKAW! —-> sigaw ng utak ko.. shet.. oo nga.
“Right! Eto na!”
Mukha kaming tanga.. nagpapractice talaga? Mga thrice naming ginawa yun, pero hindi ko talaga kayang ngumiti..
“Hindi ka ba marunong ngumiti?” he asked.
“MARUNONG! kung HINDI ikaw ang KAHARAP KO!” sabay taas ng kilay.
“AH ganun ah..” he said. “Upo ka sa kama.” he instructed.. Aangal pa sana ako kaso, “..just do it!”
So I sat sa lower deck..
“What now?” I asked. He sat beside me.. Nagkatitigan kaming dalawa..
Tapos bigla ba naman akong kiniliti.. sa tagiliran.. Shettttt..
“HAHAHA.. stopppp! AHAHAHA..” napahiga na ako sa kama.. Tangna nitong lalaking to. “STOP IT RALPHHH! HAHAHA!..”
he stopped.. and I was still laughing.. Ang tagal na din kasing walang nakakakiliti sa akin ng ganito..
“I thought you can’t smile when you’re with me.”
I don’t know why.. but I’m smiling..
“Kainis ka!” i was still lying on the bed.. Lumapit siya sa akin.. yumuko siya kasi nga may upper deck pa..
“Why?” he asked.. malumanay ang pagkakasabi..
Without hesitation.. siya naman ang kiniliti ko.. Malakas din pala ang kiliti ng mokong.. KUNG TUMAWA parang ewan lang..
“ALEXIS! HAHA, tama na! HAHAHA, pag ikaw.. ginantihan ko..”
“Ano, ano?” pumaibabaw ako sa kanya.. Weak point niya ang leeg.. inipit niya yung kamay ko gamit ang leeg niya..
“..sisiguraduhin kong, di ka makakatayo. HAHA.. tama naa!” tawa ng tawa ang mokong..
Namumula na siya kaya tinigilan ko na.. baka di na makahinga.. makapatay pa ako ng di-oras..
Tapos narealize ko, ang awkward nung position namin.. Nakapatong kasi ako sa tyan niya.. Kaagad-agad akong umalis..
I realized he would tickle me again so pumorma ako na hahawakan ko yung leeg niya.. Nagulat siya kaya napaluhod siya sa kama.. Nakalimutan niyang nasa lower deck kami.. Nauntog tuloy siya sa bakal.. OUCH! nasaktan din ako para sa kanya..
“ARAYYY!” napadapa siya sa kama habang hawak ang ulo niya..
“..ang kulit kasi!”
Buti na lang may ref dito.. Kumuha ako ng ice cubes sa ref at binalot sa twalya na kinuha ko sa cabinet nila..
“Ayan na..” inabot ko sa kanya.. Nilagay naman niya kaagad sa ulo niya.. I sat beside him. “Ang tanga mo kasi..” I said. I was smiling though..
“Practice na tayo..” he also smiled.. “..eye contact lang..”
He looked at me.. and I looked at him..
“You’re smiling, alexis..” Ralph said without breaking the eye contact..
“I know..” i replied.. “..nakakatawa kasi yung pose mo..nakahawak ka sa ulo mo.” I lied..
I’m smiling because now, i feel so damn happy..
He leaned forward.. I know he’s going to kiss me.
I didn’t move.. HIndi ako umiwas.. I don’t want to..
…
A kiss won’t hurt anyone, right?
…
So God, let me have this kiss tonight.
I’d be happy to let him go..after this kiss..
..after this one damn kiss.
—–
Ren
AWWWW.. the clock is ticking mga kapatid.. fudge.. dapat new year, pasko at birthday lang ang may countdown! Pinoyliterotica and MODERATOR.. THANK YOU! Madami akong natutunan sa mga posts dito.. madami din akong naging kaibigan..
shet.. ang hirap..
SANA JOKE LANG!
&*(&_)()(&*(&
Thank you so much sa mga nakilala ko dito.. special mention pa ba? baka di na umabot sa countdown e. HAHA.. you know who you are..
Ayun..
FOOL ME NOT.. hindi na natapos.. di ko alam kung saang site ko itutuloy..
probably sa sayangstories or erotivoice..
See you there..
HAY.. mas mahaba pa sana tong chapter na to, kaso di na ata aabot sa countdown..
Yung message ko di na naedit.. so guys.. Don’t forget to smile.. haha.. God bless. TC.. AJA..
~ren