CJ. He was my first boyfriend in college. my last was like nothing since it was just puppy love in HS. We ‘ve been on and off and finally after more than a year, we made the end final. it was a bitter break up. nothing sweet and kind. it was just painful. A couple of months after the break up, I received a message from him.
CJ: where are you?
me: still in school.
CJ: you have class saturdays?
me: obviously.
CJ: what time ka matatapos jan?
me: probably after lunch.
CJ: let’s have late lunch?
me: ok. you know where to find me. pick me up at around 2.
So he picked me up after my class. He didn’t say hi to my friends anymore. it was just too awkward. We went to shangri-la mall and had late lunch in an italian resto.
CJ: I miss you. so much.
me: i miss you too. but it doesn’t change anything. we’re still over.
cj: hindi ko naman sinabing magbalikan tayo. i just want to spend time with you again. you know, marami ng nagbago.
me: like what? do you actually have a better life now?
cj: i can’t say if it’s better. but i’m trying. i already have my own place. finally. i did what you’ve been telling me.
me: it’s time you grew up.
he held my hand and said, “please. please try to be kind to me.”
“ok. I’m sorry. let’s start over… so where’s your place now?”
“I bought a condo unit near my office. an officemate shares the place with me so what he pays me pays for my monthly dues. i just have to pay for my groceries and other expenses.”
“good. i’m happy for you.”
“you wanna see it? ang ganda ng place ko. yung gf ng officemate ko yung nagdecorate. naaawa daw kasi sya sa ming guys na ang pangit ng unit namin. tignan mo. you can also rearrange it if you want..”
i had second thoughts there. I’ve heard this before. see, CJ and I have never had sex. Yes, in that more than a year relationship, we’ve never had sex. we kissed, played, bj, finger. pero never full penetration. and he wasn;t my boyfriend anymore. i don’t want to do anything with him. but then again, i gave in.
“ok. i’ll check it out. bring me back to school after ha. I’d still go out with my friends.”
“sure sure.”
we went to their place. pwede na. kinda messy. smells like two guys live there. haha. he showed me his room.
“Where’s your roomie?” I asked while i walked around.
He was standing right at my back, squeezing my hips, “nasa work. hindi yun uuwi this weekend”
He started lifting my shirt and rubbing my tummy. his other hand tried to unbutton my pants. he was kissing my neck and ears.
“CJ… please.” He turned me around to face him. he started kissing me. I just gave in. i didn’t care anymore. I kissed him back and started to remove his shirt. he inserted his hands under my bra to reach for my nipples. he started squeezing them. “hhhmmm… i missed that. aah.” He went down kissing my breasts and pulled down my pants. while he was removing my pants, i took off my shirt then took off his shirt and pulled his pants. We were just in our undies.
he directed me outside to the living room.
“bakit dito?” i asked him. “your roomie might just walk in.”
“mas exciting.” he answered. I didn’t fight anymore. I wanted to be laid. anywhere.
he sat on the couch. i spread my legs and sat on his lap. he started sucking and licking my nipples alternately. sobrang sarap and i felt i was already getting wet. i started to rub myself on his hard on. i feel tumitigas na sya. I think my panties are wet na rin. He pushed my away for a second and asked me to remove my bra and panty. he removed his briefs too. and then we went back to our position.
He kept kissing and sucking my breasts. i was holding on tightly to his neck. sobrang sarap talaga when i was already feeling that he was rubbing the tip of his hard cock on my really wet clit.
“aaahh.. aahh. parang mapapa-cum mo ko ng ganyan lang..”
“cum na hon.”
He inserted a finger then. and started going in and out. when he noticed that it was sliding so easily, he inserted another finger. it was so tight. i think it hurt a bit.
“hon, did someone touch you when i wasn’t around?”
“No. virgin pa rin ako. ”
“that’s what i like.” I think it turned him on even more. while his two fingers were going in and out of me, i felt his whole palm rubbing my clit with my wetness. Grabe ang saraaap.
“aah. ah. aaaahh.. uh.. cumming…”
I quickly stood and knelt in front of him. i just grabbed his dick and started licking it. sucking the tip, licking the body. sucking his balls. my hand helped him give pleasure. sobrang gigil na gigil lang ako..
“hon, malapit na ko.. faster.”
i did him faster. sucking him and gving him a handjob at the same time. he came inside my mouth. i licked his still hard cock. and i saw his satisfied face. I sat beside him.
“is that it?” I asked him
“What do you mean?”
“don’t you want more?”
“What?! i thought…”
“do me. i’m not done. do me.”
He pushed me to lay down on the couch. he started piching my nipples again while his other hand started playing with my clit. he went down and started to lick my clit and pussy lips. “aaahhh… aaa ugh..” i was screaming. Nsg cum na ulit ako. I got up to sit infront of him. i spit on my hand and touched his not yet hard dick. pagod pa ata. hehe. then i started rubbing it and then felt it getting hard again. once in a while i lick my hand so it would glide on his cock. when it was hard, i asked him “inside me?”
“sure?”
“yes.”
“On your back..” So i laid down again he pointed his cock on my pussy. “this is gonig to be painful ha..”
“ok. gently then..”
He tried to enter me.. “ouch!”
“relax ka..” he tried again, while pushing in, his other hand was playing with my clit.. dahil sa sarap, i think i forgot the pain.. and was just surprised that he was fully in already. he started pumping.. that’s when i felt the pain again.
“Sa simula lang..” he went on pumping me.. very gently.. when he heard me moaning softly already, he started to move more quickly.
“masarap na.. aah. uigh, ah.”
He spread my legs and then placed them on top of his shoulders. really enjoyed the deep penetration. He was ramming me fast. Although it was painful, it felt good at the same time…
“cummmiiingg!!” He said aloud. he went in and out several times pa then he quickly pulled out and came in my tummy.
It felt so good. we fell asleep. We did it again after we woke up. twice more.
“Dapat sundan agad para mawala yung sakit.” He said. haha.
We never saw each other again after that.