As I look at his hand I thought to myself. Can I do this? Am I really that kind of person? Can I look in the mirror tom and be happy? Can I look at my husbands face and say Im ok. A lot of things were running in my mind. My kids. my husband the fact that Im becoming what I hated the most like my father…….
I can still recall the night before I chatted on irc and what led me to this kind of relationship.
In our room with my husband.
Me: Can we talk? feeling ko kasi wala ka ng time sa akin eh.
Hubby: Pagod ako ano na naman bang kadramahan yang sasabihin mo? Palibhasa hindi ka nag tratrabaho kaya kung ano anong pumapasok sa isip mo eh
Me: then let me work. pwede naman akong mag trabaho ha. para saan pa ung pinag aralan ko kung di ko rin naman magagamit.
Hubby: Kaya nga ako nag tratrabaho para hindi ka na mahirapan eh.
Me: ang gulo mo sabi mo hindi ako nagtratrabaho tpos ngayon ayaw mo kong mag trabaho. ANO BA TALAGA!!
Hubby: matutulog na ko walang saysay pinag uusapan natin maaga pa ko bukas.
At around midnight I was awaken by him kissing me..
Me: Ano ba akala ko ba maaga ka pa.
Hubby: Halika dito.. Chupain mo ko…
As I kiss him on the lips down to his neck, he was gently pushing my head down to his groin. I can see his already hard. I can smell na may precum na. I gently pulled down his boxers and slowly lick the top of his dick.
Hubby: ahhhhhhhhh ssssshhhiiiiitt sige pa…..
As I lick the top of his dick, I was slowly stroking my hands up and down his dick. I can hear him moan in pleasure.
Hubby: aaahhhhhh ma…. sige laaaannnnnnggg…. hmmmmmm
I gently suck his head pero hindi buo, sinubo ko yung ulo lang ng titi nya. Habang hawak hawak ng kamay ko, dahan dahan kong tinataas baba kamay ko sa nangangalit nyang titi.. Hindi ko na napigilan bigla kong sinubo lahat…
Hubby: oooohhhhhh shhhhiiittt sige laannng maaaaa…… ohhhhhhh
Binilisan ko pag labas masok sa bibig ko ng titi nya… habang nilalaro ng kamay ko ang bayag nya…
Hubby: subo mo lang lahat ma…… ooooohhhh……
Habang subo subo ko titi nya hinawakan nya ulo ko at dahan dahan nyang sinasabay sa pag labas masok ng titi nya sa bunganga ko… Halos mabilaukan ako sa pag kakadiin ng titi nya sa bibig ko… Sarap na sarap sya hanggang sa nararamdaman ko na pabilis na ng pabilis ang labas masok ng titi nya sa bibig ko….
Hubby: aaahhhh shhhhiiiiiiiit maaaa…. lalabasaaannn naaa kooooo……
Bigla nyang inilabas ang titi nya sa bibig ko at jinakol sa tapat ng aking mukha……….
Pumasok ako sa banyo para mag linis. Pag balik ko sa kama tulog na sya. Sinubukan ko syang gisingin.
Me: tama bang tulugan ako ha… huy…
Hubby: bukas na lang pagod na ko.. may meeting pa ko bukas….
Halos ganito ang sex life namin mag asawa… Which is nakasanayan ko na sa halos 3 taon naming pag sasama.
So back to the condo….
As I took his hand, I kiss him passionately on the lips and stared at his face and said….
Me: As much as I want to do this, I really cant……. I have made a lot of mistakes in my life which I know will have consequences. Your right I dont want to wake up tom and ask myself what have you done. I may not be happy with him but I made a promise to be with him. Kasalanan na nga tong ginawa natin eh. And I know Im killing you right now for that Im really sorry…
And with that I quickly put on my clothes and I was about to leave when he held me tight and said..
Guy: Im sorry.. and its ok.. ihahatid na kita…
Me: No ok lang ill take a cab..
I gave him a kiss on the cheek and left his condo. As I took the elevator down I cried. I cried dahil sa nagawa ko and cried dahil nakayanan kong umalis. It may be too late but at least I made it out of there..
So as of now were still together with my hubby it may not be perfect, but hey theres no perfect relationship in the first place…. thanks to everyone who red this story….. and to all a goodnight……
And with that note 3-2 mavericks won.. Sorry babe you lost…. hehehehe