Chapter 1
It all started with ignorance, curiosity, satisfaction of curiosity, exploration, viewing, fantasizing, & endless silent & extreme adventures were the end. I want to introduce myself as Nancy. I am 18 years old with fantasies that are not currently satisfied. For instance, I am looking for a nice guy that will make my life exciting in a very extreme, naughty, wild & adventurous way. But of course, he should be nice & loves me with a few lustful thoughts in between. Anyway, it all started when I was still….
Innocent & looking like an angel in my own way, it seems that I cannot do anything wrong since I am always concerned of what people will criticize about me. This is where my world revolved, criticisms that are mostly destructive. This is also the time that cell phones got its first appeal to teens. I got my first cell phone ever & I was happy then it all started with that cell phone. Days gone by and I have lots of text mates. But many rejected me, since I was still young. But one guy 6 years older than me, sticked with me cuz’ he thought I was near his age. We talked about lots of things till we end up at no topic at all until he opened sex into my life. I thought it was just something adults do if they want babies. Percy corrected this error & explained that it’s not like that.
“What? Ganon ka ba ka ignoranate sa sex?”
Is it really a very common topic na lahat alam except ako?
“Tingnan mo daliri mo & position it as if you were pointing at something… That’s how a real penis will look like, but just increase the size of the long shaft into about 6 inches with the size of a round perfume bottle.”
“Ha?” was all I can say.
“Hehe, haven’t you seen a real one yet?”
“Am still 12 what can you expect?”
“What? You’re 12? I thought… well never mind… okay… Um this is awkward. Let’s change topic”
—Silence—
“Pero, sabi nila masarap daw? How true?”
“Nance, I don’t think it’s the right time na maalam mo ‘tong mga bagay na to…”
“Am just asking questions… Is it?”
“Bye Nance…” & he hung up…
Wanting to know what he meant I searched the net, for the first time, for porn. Not knowing where to start, yahoo search engine was the solution. Typed in porn then searched images. My jaw dropped & stayed like that for at least ten minutes. It felt like it locked to that position when I laid eyes on such vulgar pictures. I felt my hands froze like ice but steam was streaming out of my spaghetti strap nighties. I felt Goosebumps going down my spine and starting to feel perspiration dripping down the sides of my face. Then I accidentally kicked the computer socket. Damn! It turned off.
This left me pondering on it for many days. I can’t forget what Percy said, as if it were tattooed on my mind. What is sex? Is it really that pleasurable? Do adults think of it that often? Standing in front of my full length mirror in my room, I looked at myself. I caressed softly my face going up to my hair displacing every strand of it then down to the sides of my chest. Not satisfied & feeling stupid, I opened my computer & searched for porn.
Women naked & looking like they’re inviting each man to erect caught my attention. Then it hit me… Men love to see women naked! Facing the mirror while sitting down & legs apart only wearing bikini type pink panties, a pink baby bra & a loose white hanging off shoulders shirt. I observed every inch of my body staring from my toes going up my smooth white legs then up my belly button. Slowly & teasing to myself, I stood up lifting of the butt first. Then turned to see my right side in front of the mirror then touching my waist which measures 24 inches then up & under my shirt exposing a bit of my pink bra then gently squeezing my immature boobs with both hands. It feels great & caused my eyes to close as I bit on my lower lip. I can feel my hair standing at the back of my neck. I opened my eyes, took a quick look in the mirror then caressed the area above my right boob then pulling down my off shoulder hanging shirt to expose more skin. Amazed of what I felt I continued impatiently and touched the area between my boobs & felt the hard pounding of my heart. I can feel the rush of hot blood down my back & heat going up trying to find release.
Ring! Ring! Ring! My cell phone, where is it? I tossed the blanked & the pillows aside & there it is! It’s Percy…. Will I answer it or not? What will I do? Ring! Ring!