*PILOT* is not necessarily his profession. It’s just a monicker.
Nagpatuloy na at mas lumalim ang aming pagtitinginan ni ‘Brodkaster’ sa paglaon ng panahon. This story now is when we’re on our 3rd year into the relationship. Marami nang mga adventures ang aming nagawa together. Andyan yun magkakantutan kami sa loob ng sasakyan nya habang naka-park sa isang subdivision na katabi ng subdivision namin, afraid that we would get caught by the roving patrol, pero hindi naman nahuli; papupuntahin nya ako sa tahanan nila sa Maynila at doon gagawin namin sa may bintana nila at may nakanood pa nga sa amin noon na dalawang teenagers na siguro ka-edad noon ng anak nya; patuloy pa rin kami sa pagbisita sa iba’t ibang motels sa kalakhang Maynila; hanggang sa ako ay nagtapos na ng kolehiyo, nagtratrabaho na, patuloy pa rin kami sa aming ginagawa. Sapat na sa akin na binibigyan nya ako ng panahon. I could not ask for anything more. To me, it was the best feeling ever to be spending time with him, and I knew that he wanted to spend time with me because he felt so safe and at peace with me also.
Maalaga ako na tao. Maalaga at mapagmahal ako na karelasyon. Mabait naman ako. At most of all, hindi ako pakawala. I only do it with someone I love, and hopefully he loves me back also. And I guess he also did.
He opens up
One time at their house, when I was facing the mirror preparing to go home and fixing myself, he asked what I was gonna do for that day…
”May trabaho ako, pero may gagawin muna ako sa bahay. Why?”
”Wala lang.”
then a long pause …
‘‘Wala kasi akong kasama. Tinatamad na nga ako pumasok, gusto ko na mag-resign eh.”
Napatigil ako sa ginagawa ko. I felt like he needed me so much more today. But it felt bad that I had to go home because my parents never knew where I slept the previous night, and they must be now furious at me. That’s the tough part on a secret affair.
”Sayang naman, matagal ka na sa kumpanya nyo diba?” tanong ko.
”Oo, twenty years na ako don eh, tang ina. Sawang sawa na ‘ko, nakakatamad na. Gusto ko na nga magresign eh.”
‘‘Yon anak mo ba tuwing kelan mo nakakasama?”
”Kada weekend lang. Sa weekend ko pa ulit masusundo sa bahay ng nanay nya.”
This broke my heart.
There’s this man who’s opening up to me right now, and I cannot be there when needs me more. I was beginning to feel now that it wasnt only sex he was seeing me for, but more of a companionship. Someone to listen to him, someone to care for him. This has escalated to a more personal level of a relationship. Pakiramdam ko, mas minahal ko sya ngayon dahil mas kailangan nya ako, at nagsasabi sya sa akin ng nararamdaman nya bukod sa kalibugan.
Hinatid nya ako sa kung saan ay makakakuha ako ng taxi na maghahatid sa akin sa tirahan namin. Ibang sasakyan na ngayon ang gamit namin, bagong bili nya. I can no longer recall where I got off his SUV to transfer to a cab, but it was still close to where he lives.
It was the break of dawn. I loved caressing his nape and his back while driving, just to remind him I love him. Then I told him what I discovered the previous night while he was asleep next to me in his bed’
”May sleep apnea ka, his full name.”
”Hha-hah? Ano yon?”
”Sleep apnea, isang disorder yun sa pagtulog na minsan bumabagal ang paghinga ng tao. Minsan, totally, hindi humihinga for a certain time. Yun sa’yo, hindi ka humihinga ng 1 to 2 minutes. In-orasan ko eh.”
”Hindi ko alam yun na may ganon ako.”
”Gusto mo samahan kita magpa-checkup?”
”Wag na.”
”Bakit hindi mo alam, wala bang nagsabi sayo na may ganon ka?”
”Wala.”
”Kahit yun mga nakakatabi mo dating mga babae sa pagtulog, wala man lang nagsabing may sleep apnea ka?”
”Wala.”
Pinsan ko yan!
Then, he went silent.
He hailed a cab and went to the driver and said, ”Hi, ako si full name niya.” The driver immediately recognized him and greeted him. ”Hatid mo ‘to sa kanila ha, ingatan mo yan. PINSAN KO YAN!”
Aww. I heard it all. But I let it pass. I kissed his lips and he told me to take care. Then I alighted his vehicle.
I transferred into the cab and the driver asked me, ‘‘Ma’am, sa’n tayo?”
”Sa name of my place po.”
”Talaga ma’am, pinsan nyo si sir full name ni Pilot?”
”Ahmm, hindi po. Boyfriend ko po sya.”
Hanggang naihatid na ako sa bahay namin at tinext ko si ‘Pilot’ para sabihin na nakauwi na ako.
My phone rang and it was him.
‘‘I miss you. I’m alone now. Nalulungkot ako.”
Muli, parang dinudurog ang puso ko. Wala ako sa panahon na kailangan nya ng karamay. Pero di naman magtatagal at magkakasama na kami ulit. Madali lang naman ang panahon. Kumirot lang ang puso ko nang sabihin nyang tinatamad na syang magtrabaho at gusto nang magresign. It’s something different, it’s some kind of a sorrowful statement for someone that age who’s quite famous in his field to say that.
So our conversation has ended and I went to sleep. Hindi ko na rin matandaan kung pano nakalusot sa mga magulang ko ang excuse ko kung saan ako natulog the night before (Sunday night which is really my rest day from the graveyard work). But I knew that they didnt buy it. They were testing the waters to know more and find out more what I could’ve been doing lately.
Marami-rami pang nangyari sa mga buhay namin ni ‘Pilot’. Ang isa sa hindi ko malilimutan ay yung nagkantutan kami sa kama habang katabi yon friend kong natutulog. Yan ang ikwekwento ko sa inyo sa susunod na storya ko. Thank you for reading though. I will write more next time.
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