Napangiti ako at sabi ko. “Hindi naman, wala pa talaga kase akong nagugustuhan na mapangasawa eh”
“A ganon, siguru, puro “inaasawa” mu lang ang manga babae pero walang kasal2” Sabi ni Ella sabay napatawa lang sya. Nakitawa na rin ako, kase kahit pala paano, pilya pa rin si Ella.
Nang nag-hiwalay kami that day, niyakap nya ulit ako. I hugged her tightly and longer than usual. She embraced me tightly too before we separated. I looked her in her sweet innocent eyes. Automatically, I kissed her on her forehead. She smiled at me and before she turned around I was still holding her hand. I was very happy that day, and I’m sure that I was falling in love with my cousin.
When the semester ended in October, she was still in manila hanging out with her friends. It was Friday, and she texted me to meet her in the afternoon. She wanted to hang out with me before going to the province that night. We met again in Malate since she’s near that area. We went to a restaurant in Robinson’s Place and had dinner. I ordered beers for myself and I offered her if she want some too. Although we had more than one beer each, we both never got to the point that we were drunk or tipsy.
I was really enjoying her company for she was really gorgeous. Ang ganda pa nang out fit nya. She was wearing a simple, but very girly sandals. Naka-halter dress sya na may blue and white horizontal stripes at yung string nag halter dress ay yellow na naka tali naman sa batok nya. Naka short sleeve shirt ulit sya kaya kahit paano, hindi totally revealing ang suot nya. Simple, inosenteng college girl pa rin ang appearance nya. Over all, she’s pretty. Pasimpleng pinagmamasdan ko sya all the time.
Gusto kong pagmasdan sya nang husto kaya after I used the restroom to pee, I sat next to her. Grabe ang bango nang insan ko. As she leaned her head on my left shoulder, I placed my left arm around her, and smelled her hair. She was really comfortable with me as if she’s my girlfriend. We continued talking but more of a whisper. I kissed her forehead and held her a little closer to me.
Every now and then, I would talk to her with my mouth close to her right ear, and looking down to her chest. I could see the top of her small firm breast. Definitely, she noticed, but she did not reposition herself to cover. Lalung lumakas ang libog ko sa kanya. Panay panay pa rin ang amoy ko sa buhok nya at idinidikit ko na talaga ang nose ko sa head nya. Napalanghap ako at sabi ko ang bango mo talaga Ella. Ngumiti ulit sya at sabay inom ulit nang beer.
I asked her if she’s going home to the province that night, and she said that she’s already tired to take the trip. I asked her if she’s going back to her dorm, but she said that her roommates already left. I took her response as an opportunity to invite her to just stay with me.
So I asked, “If you want cousin, samahan na lang kita ngayon.”
Ella said, Sige kuya, saan tayo pupunta?
I did not answer her question and simply requested our bill. When we left the restaurant inside Robinson’s, I was feeling bold and held her hands. So para ku syang girlfriend na nung umalalis kami sa restaurant. I cannot really describe to all the readers kung paano ko binasa yung manga gusto at hindi nya gusto: instinct na lang ang sinundan ko.
I’ve been to a hotel near Robinson’s Place so we walked, and I took her there. She did not protest when we entered the lobby, so I proceeded to the counter and got us a room. When we were in the elevator, I hugged her tightly with my body pressing against her. I did not kiss her yet, since I was still trying to discern her mind. In the end, I told myself that as long she doesn’t complain or asked me to stop, I’ll continue and only stop my advances when she told me to so.