Nakilala ko si Eric sa di inaasahang panahon,mag wa one month pa lang ata nang break up ko sa aking boyfriend for one year and six months nun. Matagal ko na din syang napapansin dati and everytime I opened PL, pag sa post ko hinahanap ko siya magcomment…halos everyday ako nun kung mag open dahil yun ata ang time na adik na adik ako sa PL.Pag di ko nakita ang username nya, I felt sad o minsan iniisip ko what happened kaya or what kaya ginagawa nya kaya di sya naka pag online.Until one time, in one site nagkabiruan kami about going into a motel, I really imagine him as a large stocky man, and even though nakikipaglokohan ako sa kanya, ang takot ay di talaga naalis.Then nasunod yun nung minsan katext ko din ang isang kababayan whom I met in PL too,when he started texting me using her number, I asked my friend kung ano ang itsura nya, she said cute, hmmmm, na curious ako lalo….until that night, nag-umpisa ang pagiging textmate namin….he is also a fellow oragon, we became friends and marami kaming napagkukwentuhan lagi, and everytime na magtext kami, siguro since di pa healed ang puso ko palaging yung ex ko ang topic namin, everyday palagi ko na syang katext, and when I finally saw him sa pics, natawa ako, yes he is cute pero di sya ganun kalaki sa inaasahan ko, but it didn’t matter anymore, siguro nakatatak na ata saakin yung goodness na pinapakita nya, onething about him is that he always tell me, naiinggit sya sa taong minahal ko kasi I could write so many things about him, the poems, the blogs and even the stories in PL.
When I went to Manila to be with a family member, the first thing I did is to tell him I’m in the vicinity. The night before our scheduled meeting, was a crucial one for me, I’m torn between the decision I had to make and something that is bothering me, It was not a romantic meeting, it was in the hospital, His office is just walking distance from that hospital ( I learned that after we alighted from the taxi, a few meters from their building), I even texted him that I passed by at their building, he told me that he will come over at lunchtime, ….i felt so nervous, I really don’t know what to do, I kept texting my friend and she was laughing at me, even doing a countdown, tiningnan ko ang aking cellphone, (bawal sakin ang magrelo, kaya ang ginagamit kong orasan ay ang aking cellphone)
11:45….and when I look up, the first one I saw is a man papalapit sakin in a blue barong, nakasalamin, hmmmm cute….then nagblanko ako….I know sya si Eric, I saw this guy sa pic, it’s as if I’ve known him for so long, nawala lahat ng aking kaba, everything will be ok…..
And as to writing about him……he enjoys reading now and di man sya mag comment I still know kung ano ang nasasabi nya dahil we text..I asked him what ba ang gusto mo gawin natin sa story ko sayo…and he would say I have no idea..kaya lahat ng story ko sa kanya puro surprise……..kaya lang sabi ko palagi sa kanya…..natatakot ako magsulat masyado ng erotic about us, baka dumating ang time….gawin nya nga lahat sakin….lagot……….di ko talaga siya uurungan…….
I love you man……muahhhhh….take care for always……..