I was new at the chatting scene when this happened 6 years ago. It was less than a year after giving birth at that time and though i was feeling the urge to be intimate with someone, i was afraid of being with guys for fear that it might actually hurt. So i figured i might just get back to meeting girls na lang muna. I was into it anyway, when i was a teenager. Im not a lesbian though, bisexual maybe, but even that i dont really own up to. Im just someone in touch with my sexuality, and sometimes, its nice being with girls too. Alma was a friend i met online. We hit it off right from the start and she was the one who invited me to come to GEB’s before. I would view her on webacam and she;s do the same often remarking, “tomboy ka ba? eh malaki pa suso mo sa akin, ako pa yata matotomboy sayo eh”. I simply would say no, “may anak nga ako, pano ako magiging tomboy.” I came to personally hit on her, since all my attempts turn futile online. it was a lion’s world in tha chat room, guys outdo me all the time. In the end, they have what i dont, and i wont contest, heck i miss havin one in me too at times. Im just not yet ready at that time, so i tend to go for gurls. However, the more i hit on girls, the more intruiged guys get and wooed me all the more, they know deep inside id give in. It was only a matter or time they thought, but nah. I knew what i wanted then, and i was out to get it. I loved the thrill of the chase, that’s what drives me all the more, the fact that it takes a lot of hard work to make a girl say yes… As for guys, given na yun eh, they’d fuck you in a hearbeat. No offense meant guys, but thats just the case. So it was her i pursued… And hard time she gave me. I called her mahal, and she ended up calling me mahal too. We would flirt all tha time, but that was it for her. She was just not interested in girls, not like that. She liked me a lot, she’d say all the time. Even find me attractive and wondered why i go after girls when i can get a man in no time. She’s missing my point i guess. Darn, how i wanted her, she was what you’d call malaman, and thats how i like girls. So i keep on persuading her but she would have none of it in bed. That was until she had to come to me for help. She called me early one morning… “mahal, tangina, di pa ako nagkakaroon, baka buntis ako. Tulungan mo naman ako.” She wouldnt take the prehnancy test kasi takot sya baka daw positive. She just wanted to act on it right away.I knew she was intent on doing something grave and i honestly can’t blame her, this was just not the right time, I have never committed abortion but i think i know where we could go, or so i thought. “Gano ka ba ka sure? Mag pregnancy test ka na muna, it would buy you a couple of days’ worth of piece of mind if it yields negative. if not, try natin quiapo.” I was nervous for her, i was nervous myself, i really didnt know how to go about it, i was just letting her hear what she needed at the moment. Call me heartless, but something actually came into mind when i realized her predicament; she’d finally say yes if i ask her again. So i called her and told her i’d go with her after she agrees to come with me.And i was right on target, she agreed to go to bed with me. “basta gusto ko victoria ha! Baka kung saan saan mo lang akong motel dalhin, wag na!” I had to laugh when i heard her say that. “Oo naman, walang problema dun”. So we met in makati the next night, had dinner at roasters and decided to go for a walk. I was afraid to bring up the topic about bedding her, and i can sense that she was avoiding the topic too, maybe hoping she can wiggle out of it. “pano bukas, samahan mo ako sa quiapo?” she blurted out of the sudden. “oo bukas. as for now, ako munang bahala sayo…” and hailed a cab. “pasig tayo kuya, victoria po” i told the driver and saw the driver eyeing me a bit surprised. I guess he wasnt used to seein two busty, relatively good looking girls going to motels. This is it i thought, months of hard work and i’d finally have this luscious woman beside me… I wa damn excited, havent used my skills in a long time…. I’d make sure she would love every moment of it…. To be continued….