Lately, I realized that I have been immensely fascinated with matured guys. Yun bang ages between 38-45 and even up to 50. I do not know if other females of my age could relate. There are a number of possible reasons why. Maybe because they are the ones who usually talk with sense, they can be good listeners and counselors, they could teach you lots of lessons in life, they understand women better, they have lots of experiences to share, and I suppose they are skilled in bed. Tama ba mga manong?
I’ve known a few of them here in PL and they are nice indeed. Though some are more naughty than nice. In several instances, conversations could turn steamy and I do admit, I am at times carried away.
One PL regular from Mindanao (let’s just call him Neil), one of the nicest people I have known. Our conversations started with some revelations of the crazy things we did. I could not forget a line from him that goes like this “enjoy life, we only live once.”
That line gave me an impression that this guy is into it, meet and mate. In some ways, he influenced me and it swayed me into the idea that it’s okey to enjoy life, have fun but to be extra careful. We arrived at an agreement to meet if we get the chance to, though medyo malabong mangyari coz hindi naman ako pumupunta dun sa place nya and vice versa. We’re 9-12 hours drive away. But who knows?
I have seen his pics, and he allowed me to view his cam for several times. One word that best describes him, “YUMMY”. I could not explain why I find him really sexually appealing.
I am hungry for a very satisfying sexual encounter. My sex life has been quiet monotonous. Pati sa job ko, I’m bored as hell. I wanna do something else. I want to add a little spice. I wanna be thrilled. I want to unleash.
I could not help but fantasize about Neil. Wow, he could be the perfect bed partner. I could imagine him undressing me, exploring my mouth, squeezing my butt, caressing my breasts, licking and sucking my nipples. He’d then lay me down in the bed, kiss me on the neck, down to my breasts down to my tummy. He’d spread my legs a bit and feel my wetness with his fingers. As he rub my clit, he would hear my soft moans. He’d smile at me first then he would suck my nipples harder and rub my clit faster. His fingers would be soaked with my juice.
As he continue to tease my body, I would beg him to enter me. He would spread my legs wider and I would be expecting him to thrust his hard manhood. I would be surprise to know that he had replaced his fingers with his tongue instead of his cock. He would taste every inch of my moist cunt, and cleverly play my throbbing clit. I would moan harder, pull his head and arch my hips forward to meet his mouth. He’d gently bite and suck my clit and then go back to licking it. I would close my eyes and feel the pleasure flowing in each piece of my vein. I would want to move, but I could not. I have turned into a prey and my captor wouldn’t release me. He would torment my flesh until I could not hold anymore. My legs would shake, I would scream his name in ecstasy and let my juice flow.
He would not allow me to rest after I orgasm. Still catching my breath but he would immediately thrust his hard manhood on my slippery cunt. He would be doing it slowly at first, push his hard cock and feel my soft flesh against it. My right leg would be on top of his left shoulder while my left leg on my side, allowing him to a have a better access and view of our two organs enjoined. He would gradually push his rod deeper and harder. My body would respond and I would moan to every thrust he makes. Our bodies would be synchronized, our pace would get faster and faster until we both reach the summit.
I would lie down in his arm and embrace him. We’d both smile at each other and say thank you. We would be talking of anything that comes to our mind until we would fall asleep.
I would wake him up by giving him an amazing blowjob. The moment he opens his eyes, I’d gaze at them and draw a naughty smile on my face while I hold the base of his cock and lick the tip of its head. I would tighten my lips and slowly slide his dick inside my mouth. I would take in whatever I could until I could feel the head of his dick against the entrance of my throat. I would keep on doing this until his dick is in its full length and hardness.
I would sit on top of him and slowly glide my cunt and take his cock inside of me. I would move back and forth with my breasts protruded so he could play with them while I grind.
He would then request for his turn. I’ll go on fours and he’d position himself at my back. This time, we would do the dogstyle. He’d grab my breast while he’s fucking me from behind. He would do it rapidly and wouldn’t stop until we both reach orgasm.
We would rest, talk, sleep and fuCk again.
I had the same fantasy to an equally yummy looking guy like Neil. Lets just call him Joe, 50 years old. I’ve known him even before I found PL. We regularly chat in YM.Find him really smart. His location is just 2-3 hours away from where I am. And I usually visit the place once a month for some work related concerns. Joe happens to own a souvenir shop at a nearby Island which is a popular tourist destination. He has been inviting me to visit the island and volunteered to be my tour guide. I didn’t take the invitation seriously. One time while we’re chatting, he gave me a link one of the island’s best resort. I clicked on it, and was really amazed, but ohhh, the rates.. An overnight stay would cost me half of my monthly net pay. So I told him.
“Wala na bang mas mura? Di ko afford yan. Ano kala mo sakin mayaman?. Hehe”
“Bakit, ikaw ba magbabayad pag nagpunta tayo dyan?” He answered.
“Hahahaha.. Talaga? Manglilibre ka? Mayaman ka nga siguro..”
“I’m serious. Minsan lang ako mag invite. Sige na, come with me, kahit 3 days lang. You need a break din, you are working too hard.”
“As if naman ganun kadali. Ang hirap kaya lumusot kay husbie. And of course I wouldn’t leave my kids for that, napaka selfish ko naman, ako lang mag eenjoy at the expense of my kids.”
“Okey, it’s up to you. But if you happen to visit my place again, please inform me, we could probably just meet and then I’ ll show you around.”
Just a week after this conversation, nagka schedule naman ako to visit their place. I was not sure pa whether to inform him or not. But I got so bored when I got there. Have a lot things to do but I felt like I also need a short break. So I texted him during Lunch Break and informed him na nasa lugar niya ako. Then he asked if he could meet me in the afternoon around 4 PM and I replied okey.
Afternoon came. It was almost 5 o’clock but then I didn’t get any message from him yet. Nakakadisappoint. So I decided to just roam around the city with the office’s staff at the same time to buy our dinner. Pabalik na kami sa office when I received a text from him.
JOE: Sori, wasn’t able to text you, I run out of load kanina. Where are you now? Can we meet?
ME: It’s ok, but you’re too late, pabalik na kami sa office.
JOE: I’m here across your office building.
ME: Ok, wait, I’m coming.
I was a bit nervous na pero di ako nagpahalata sa kasama ko. How could I meet him, eh may kasama ako. Have to think of an alibi at may naisip naman ako. Nung malapit na kami sa building I saw a guy in white shirt at inisip ko na baka siya na yun. Pero dahil nga kasama ko yung staff ng office, I pretended na wala akong nakita. Dumaan lang ako sa harap niya. Nung nasa loob na kami, sinabihan ko yung kasama ko na mauna na lang sya sa loob dahil magpapaload muna ako.
So ayun paglabas ko, nakita nya ako. He smiled and approached me, shook my hands. Wow, di ako makapaniwalang this guy is already 50 years old. He looked much younger than his age. Mga 5’’9” ang height, medium build, with a fair and smooth skin and halatang alaga niya ang body niya, di kasi malaki ang tiyan. He’s wearing a white polo shirt, naka jeans and rubber shoes and naka cap. He really looked good and pag nag smile siya, nakakatunaw talaga. Pero siyempre ang lola, di nagpahalatang type ang lolo, still tried to act relaxed and friendly. So nag usap kami sandali, kumustahan, queries about sa work and family. He then invited me out. He asked kung nalibot ko na ba buong city and I said na hindi pa. Sabi niya, itotour daw niya ako sa magagandang place dun. Gustohin ko mang sumama, hindi ko rin magawa kasi my boss is expecting me to be back at the office, dun kasi kami magdidinner at dun na rin magpapalipas ng gabi. At ano naman sasabihin ko sa boss ko? Na aalis muna ako kasi may ka date ako? Hehehe. So I told him I would love to pero next time na lang and I explained to him why I could not.
Di pa ako nakakapasok sa office namin when I got a text from him.
JOE: It was really nice to have finally met you.
ME: Likewise. Thanks for sparing your time.
JOE: You’re welcome. I like your dress and your kutis too. I was acting decent but your face would be lovely to kiss.
Wow, I was really flattered with his text. The exchange of text messages went on until napunta usapan namin sa plan ko in my next visit. He offered to look for a cozy place for me, di kasi ako masyado familiar sa mga establishments dun. Then he asked if he could join me. Dun na nagstart exchange of naughty texts namin. Until we finally made a deal to do it in my next visit. Of course hindi ako tumanggi. Bakit pa? I am about to fulfill one of the things I have been fantasizing about, “to do it with an older guy”. And there he is, the perfect candidate, proposing.
At bakit ko to gagawin? Well, naalala ko yung sinabi ni Neil, “enjoy life, we only live once.” In my assessment, I am not enjoying my life anymore. And now I have this rare chance to enjoy it without having to worry na mahuhuli ako ng husband ko. I believe I deserve to be happy.
Ohh how I miss being free. Miss those days when I’m free to go wherever I want, be with whoever I want and do whatever I want to. When I am on travel, it’s the only time I can be free. Free from my super jealous and insecure husband.
I often envy the single girls here in PL. Wow, buti pa sila, they can still do what they want.
When I settled down with my husband, I thought I would be behaving for good na. The first two years were easy. But lately, I got so depressed and bored with my married life. Not because my husband isn’t good in bed. I feel dominated, unappreciated and useless, despite of all the efforts, sacrifices and hardworks.
It’s all about the way he gets mad everytime I go home from work late, the way he complains everytime I ask for a permission to go out with my officemates, the way he gets jealous to one of my close male officemates which I find so unreasonable and stupid, the way he turns his back and say “distansya ka muna, ang init” everytime I would sit or lie next to him and hug him for a simple “lambing”, the way he nags at me sa text pag di ako nakapagreply or pag di ako nakapagtext of my wherabouts, the way he snores right after we make love without even saying thank you, the way he remains silent and w/o answering back after I say “I love you”, the way he refuses to talk to me or say or a word or tell me what went wrong everytime he’s in a bad mood.
I don’t deserve this. I don’t deserve to be treated like this.
I think I need to go out for a while and break free. Or maybe I wanted vengeance. Fooling around will not be just enjoyable, makakaganti pa ako sa husband ko for all the heartaches, without him knowing. Hahaha.
Gusto ko lang naman sumaya. And I could not find that happiness anymore. I want to bring back my self-esteem and self-worth. I want to be needed and appreciated. I want to be inspired and be alive again.
One time I had a chat with another matured guy from PL. He admitted he wanted to do crazy stuffs, and almost did for a couple of times. But he was too scared to do it. He’s got a wife and kids, as well. He said it’s just a matter of self-control and he did give me some tips. He even shared his experiences wherein he almost made it out with a girl but backed out.
Napahiya ako sa sarili ko. Naisip ko, siya nga kalalaki niyang tao, he’s able to fight the temptations, tapos ako hindi? Another thing na naitanong ko sa sarili ko, hanggang kailan ba ako ganito? Hanggang kailan ako makikipaglaro sa apoy? Hangga’t di ako nahuhuli? I think I have to stop this now. Before it’s too late. Bago pa ako mahuli at bago pa masira ang family ko.
One night I had the worst fight with my husband. Di ko napigilan to yell at him and say “Pagod na pagod na ako, ayoko na. Buti pa maghiwalay na tayo.” Of course I didn’t mean what I said. Sinabi ko lang yun to see kung ano reaction niya, baka sakaling magising siya. Nag freak out ako that night. He tried to calm me down. We talked afterwards and sinabi ko sa kanya lahat lahat (maliban sa mga kalokohan ko).
I can leave him if I choose to, but that would be a selfish act.
I don’t know if it did wake him up, but I’m sure it did wake me up. Kasi marami rin siyang nireveal sa akin, on how he feels with the way I treat him. Hindi rin naman ako perfect, at marami rin akong pagkakamali.
Nag back out ako sa usapan namin ni Joe the night before the schedule. Hindi dahil nagdecide na akong magpaka faithful, but to give myself a break. Gusto kong pag isipan kung ano talaga gusto ko.
Nagbago na rin yung usapan namin ni Neil na we’ll have sex pag nagkita kami. Siya na rin mismo nagsabi, mas masarap pa rin daw ang lambingan keysa sex. And I now consider him as one of my bestfriends.
Sa ngayon, heto pa rin ako. Trying to save our marriage, for the kids. Na realize ko rin, may pwede pa naman akong gawin to improve our relationship.
I won’t say na hindi ko na uli gagawin yung mga ginawa ko dahil hindi ako sigurado. But as much as possible, I’ll try to control it.
Do I still love my husband? Yes I do. But I also admit, I have fallen to somebody else, as well. How can you not fall to someone who always cheer you up whenever your down, who always listen to your countless complains and tales, who calls you up whenever he knows you need someone to talk to, who always say the words you’ve been yearning to hear?
I do not know what lies ahead. But I know it can never be us. I’m just happy that at least someone is there, filling up the missing parts of my life.
And what about my fantasies? Yes, I still fantasize about Joe. I still do naughty things on chat. And I remember one time I got so turned on while having this naughty conversation with a 48 year-old Fil Aus. So horny that I did masturbate in front of the PC, inside the office. I slipped my fingers through my pants and panty, reach for my clit, rubbed it as fast as I could while reading his naughty messages.
But as what Lopezboy once told me, “Fantasies are better left in fairyland or in PL”.
Yes I want to be free and I want to break free.. But I really have to control it before its too late.. I have to think of my family.. Kaya dito ko na lang sa PL ibubuhos lahat ng libog.. 
Salamat sa pagbasa.