Note: Emo tone….
As of this time, he is boarding the plane for UAE. I’ve never given much thought on him anymore. But once upon my life, he was there when i needed him and vice versa. We shared hot conversations, even hotter passions whenever we meet. Pete…. The man who never questioned my morality, accepted my views, shared my heat….made me laugh, comforted me with hugs, kissed me with passion. Nakilala ko si Pete sa isang gimikan sa cebu. He was with his friends; i was with mine.
For months, basag na basag na ang puso ko dahil sa taong hindi ko akalaing tatraydurin ako pero hindi pa rin inaamin ang mga nagawa nya. For months, i’ve tried in every way to heal myself and start all over again. My ex-bf was nowhere to be found. For months, i controlled myself of breaking down —– i dont want my friends worried (they worried enough already); i dont want my family affected with my pain. That night….that “another” night of setting aside my pains for the people who cares for me, that another “ordinary” night for me, i saw him.
He stood beside me in a bar’s counter waiting to order —- another set of pork kilawin and a bucket of san mig lights.
“Hi. I’m Pete.” He smiled at me offering his hand.
“Hello. I’m Liza.”
“Nagkatuwaan ah.”
“Oo nga eh. Are we noisy na ba?”
“Hindi naman. Nakakatuwa mga tawa nyo eh.”
“Haha.. Makukulit eh.”
We exhanged little informations about each other til a waiter finally arrived and took both our additional orders. We exchanged numbers. I was like a teenager all over again that night: kinikilig with his every glance and smile. Or maybe i was convincing myself that i could feel again. Ewan ko.
He called me that night when i got home. He called me every day and night after that. Slowly, we opened up personal things to each other. He was that laughter in my gloomy days.
The day came when my ex-bf confirmed that he really betrayed me….thrice, 3 different girls. The still thin wall i surrounded my heart with crumbled. I was curling in my bed, sobbing quietly, yet no tears were flowing from my eyes. Dried up na seguro. My phone rang…si Pete.
“Yellow… My bago ako dvd, wanna watch it?”
“Yellow too.. Dyan na lang sa inyo okay lang? Marami kasi tao sa baba.”
“Sure..sunduin kita in 15 mins.”
“Okay.”
“Liz..okay ka lang? You sound….lifeless.”
“Uhmm. Wala. Pagod lang.”
“Sure?”
“Sure na lang. Bili tayo maiinum. Ang sakit ng atay ko eh.” My attempt of humor.
He knew then what was wrong.
“Shit. I’ll be there as fast as i can.”
“Okay.”
Sinundo nya ako in less than 15mins. He held my hand tight while we were going to his place.
“Oh, pinalitan mo ang bedsheets ah.” I tried another lame joke when we got inside his pad.
“Kasi ang lakas ng pang-amoy mo eh. Magrereklamo ka na naman.” He answered with a smile that crinkled the side of his eyes.
“Whatever..” I murmured.
May isang maliit na sofa and coffee table. Isang malaking kama sa isang corner. He turned the aircondition on. I slumped on the bed and buried my face on his clean, fresh sheets. I faintly smelled his cologne.
“Hoi, matutulog ka lang ba?”
“Yeah, kaw na lang manood.”
“Ako lang iinom nito?” I looked up. Ice cold san mig lights bottles. Yumyum. I sat up and he sat down sa maliit na sofa nya. Nakasalang na ang dvd. Lagok lang ako nang lagok ng beer.
“Psst dahan-dahan ka nga dyan.”
“Yeah yeah..”
Nanood sya sa movie, glancing at me once in a while. He knew ayoko muna makipag-usap sa mga nararamdaman ko that time. Well yun ang akala nya. Kasi ako, i was looking at him.
Ewan ko kung anong pumasok sa kin nun and sobrang tumaas ang libog ko just by looking at him. It wasn’t just lust, it was an acute desire; it was…need. Bawat paglapat ng bibig nya sa rim ng bote, napapalunok ako. Parang naging slow-motion yung dating ng mga galaw nya sa kin. Bawat tingin nya, tumataas nang tumataas ang libog ko. Pati paghawak at paghimas nya unintentionally sa bote, napapasinghap ako ng mahina.
I knew he was confused. It was apparent with the way his eyes sharpened, the way his brows are drawn together. His glances were questioning but i just looked at him. I felt like i was looking at him as if he was something i can devour. Have you felt that kind of lust? Like you want to suck a man dry? Like you want to lick every inch of his skin? And you’re quivering inside with the intensity of the need?
“Liz, okay ka lang?”
Hindi ako sumagot. He stood up and sat beside me sa edge ng kama.
“Yosi?”
Hindi pa rin ako sumagot. Not looking at him. I was controlling not to breath fast. I was curling my hands in a fist. The need to touch him was too great.
Fatal error. He tipped my chin up. Nagtama ang paningin namin. Natupok na ako ng sariling apoy ko.
“Talk to…” Hindi nya natapos ang sasabihin nya. I was fast —- i pulled his head towards me. Naglapat ang mga labi namin. I groaned. After a second of shock ata, he responded. It wasn’t a gentle, soft kiss. It was raw and wild — the kind of which i needed that time. Mapusok ang paghahalikan namin. I was on the lead. Sinipsip ko labi nya, dinilaan, kinagatkagat, sinipsip ulit. Binuka ng dila ko labi nya, hinahagilap ang dila nya. I licked his tongue and sinipsip ko. Gigil na gigil ako sa paghalik sa kanya. He was moaning. Lalong nagpalibog sa akin.
I moved on top of him, straddling his lap. I was wearing shorts lang that time and a shirt. Mahigpit ang yakapan namin. I felt his hard dick rubbing my crotch. Walang humpay ang laplapan namin. He tried to speak, i wouldn’t let him.
I pushed him down, his back on the bed, me on top of him. I needed to feel his skin. I took off his shirt. He took off mine. Halikan ulit. I was rubbing myself on him. I took off his walking shorts and then i took off mine. I went on top of him again. We were dry-humping at each other. Naiipit yung tambok ko sa tigas ng nasa loob ng boxers nya.
My nipples were so tight. Kailangan ko ang bibig nya. He unclasped my bra, pulled my body up of him and began sucking my boobs alternately like there was no tomorrow. Feeling ko lalabasan ako sa ginagawa nya sa suso ko. Hinahalikan at dinidilaan ko naman ang side ng mukha nya, ang earlobe nya (he quivers when i do that) at ang side ng neck nya.
Isang kamay nya nasa butt ko pinipiga while we grind at each other. Nasa suso ko naman ang isang kamay nya, salitan ang lamas, piga, dila at sipsip. I had kissmarks on my chest, on my boobs — gigil din sya. Pareho kaming umuungol, napapasinghap. He slid his hand in my bikini. Masakit na masarap ang paglamas nya sa butt cheeks ko. His hand went down farther, kinakapa ang basam-basang pussy ko. Pareho kami umungol.
“Sit on my face pls, Liz.”
I stood up straight straddling his body and i let him pull my bikini off me. Lumuhod ako, nasa pagitan ng legs ko head nya. I was biting my lips to keep from moaning aloud. His eyes were so intent on my pussy; kinakalabit nya ang nakausli kong kuntil. And he pulled my hips down. I gripped his bedframe’s post, bit my lips harder as i felt his tongue lashing at my clit. Ang galing nyang dumila. My other hand grabbed his head pulling him closer pa. I grind at his mouth. I was moaning aloud na. His hands were bracing my legs to open wider pa. He licked my clit and slit up and down, twirling and sucking. Nakakabaliw. Magang maga na ang tinggil ko sa gigil nya. I was almost there. I mashed my boobs and rubbed-pinched my nipples. He felt i was cumming; dinilaan nya ng husto ang kuntil ko at sinagad ang isang finger nya sa pussy ko. Hindi ko napigilan.
“Aaaahhhhhhh tanginaah….aahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Peteeeeeeee……..”
Bumulwak ang katas ko sa bibig nya. Sinimot nya. Napahiga ako sa tabi nya, nanginginig pa. Pumwesto sya sa pagitan ng dalawang hita ko. Pinatigas nya ang dila nya at nilabas-masok sa puke ko. Sinimot talaga. I pulled him up. Nalalasahan ko pa ang katas ko sa bibig nya. Nagsisipsipan kami ng dila at laway. Nakaboxers pa sya nun. Kinakadyot nya titi nya sa pussy ko. Naglaplapan kami habang lamas lamas ng mga kamay nya suso ko.
Bumalik na naman ang libog sa katawan ko. It would not be enough until i have him inside me. Alam ko yun. I pushed him on his back and pumatong ako sa kanya. Gigil na gigil kong dinilaan ang liig nya, scrape ng teeth at kagat softly. Pababa sa chest nya. Nilapat ko puke ko sa titi nya. Ang tigas. Giniling-giling ko balakang ko habang dinilaan ko magkabilaan ang nipples nya. Ikot-ikot ang tip ng dila ko sa nipple nya bago sipsipin at kagat kagatin ng mahina. Napapaangat katawan nya. Papunta ang labi ko sa tyan nya, pababa sa puson…hanggang hawak ko na sa kamay ko ang tigas na tigas nyang titi. Mataba, tamang tama ang haba. Napakagat labi ako. I can’t wait to taste him.
I took off his boxers; i gasped when i saw his red swollen dick’s head wet with precum. He was panting. I curled my tongue directly sa ulo ng titi nya. Dinilaan ko ang precum dun.
“Ooohhhh….Ahhh Lizaa..Hmmmmm!”
He moaned loudly. I made love to his throbbing dick. I closed my lips on the head and sucked it as my tongue twist on it. Ikot-ikot ang dila ko sa ulo, sa maliit na hole dun, sa ilalim. I lapped at his head bago ko sinipsip papasok sa bibig ko ang kabuuan ng titi nya. I played his balls with the back of my hand nung sagad na sagad na ang titi nya sa bibig ko. Ang laki; punong puno ang bibig ko. He was grinding his hips, hawak ang ulo ko.
I contracted my mouth around his dick and sinipsip ko pataas then pababa uli…paulit ulit. Mabagal sa una. Pabilis nang pabilis. Hinila nya ang hips ko. Pumatong ako sa kanya; derecho nyang nilaplap pussy ko. Ako naman taas-baba ang kamay ko sa titi nya at dinidilaan ang balls nya. Salitan kong sinipsip at dinilaan bago ang titi nya. Hinihigop ko titi nya papasok nang sagad sa bibig ko. Nasipsip nya ng matindi ang clit ko; umuungol ako with his big dick buried inside my mouth.
“Uhhmmmm….Aaahhhh” “Unggggh…oooohhhhh”
I was about to cum again when he asked me to stop. Nag attempt sya na ihiga ako but i pushed him and pinatungan sya. I rubbed my pussy lips on his dick head. We were both breathing heavily. I closed my eyes when i felt his head slowly engulfed by my pussy. Inch by inch. I wanted to feel every inch of his dick. He was groaning; i was biting my lips. His hand on my hips left bruises with his grasp. Unti-unti hanggang nilamon na ng puke ko ang titi nya. Sagad na sagad sa loob ko. I felt him throb.
Nag start na ako mag grind on top of him; he was grinding back. When i pumped, his eyes were on our sexes, moaning. I grind fast on top of him; his hands guiding me. I was cumming. I was cumminggggggggg…UHmmmmmmmp.
I was breathing fast. Hiniga nya ko sa kama; i told him wag iputok sa loob. He obliged naman. Nakaisa pa ako habang sya naman ang kumakantot sa akin. Hanggang sa labasan sya. Pinutok nya sa ibabaw ng tyan ko. Ang sarap nyang tingnan. I pushed his hand away at his last squirt and sinubo ko uli ng sagad ang titi nya. Napasinghap sya. I licked and sucked him til he asked me to stop kasi raw nakakabaliw ang kiliti.
We had our affair until time came that both of us were busy na; we can’t see each other anymore. Until parang nag-fade na lang sya. Last christmas, i received a text from an unlisted number. It was Pete. Ang dami naming napag usapan. Narrating our story made me sad. I won’t be seeing him again for years or maybe never. Ngayon ko lang napagtanto, i could have loved him. His last text message before boarding was “has that ice in ur heart melted olredi? I’ve always wished i was him. miss you…and everything”
To Pete, i hope you know how special you are to me…i miss you too. 