I call her my love, because that was she is to me .A woman with rosy cheeks, a never fading lovely smile, a kissable lip, and expressive eyes. Her lithe body is so much for perfection. For me she’s a goddess of beauty.
I always visit her in the classroom, we are of the same batch but never been classmates. She knew of my budding affection for her through letters, gifts and constant invitations to have a snack or lunch with me.
One day I didn’t know that all my letters fell on the hands of the school commandant.
I was called to the office for what I call an interrogation that really rock my world.
Whewww……so hot…I was in a hot seat for openly admiring a girl in a catholic school environment.
I didn’t deny anything. Who could? Anyway they had all the evidence against me.
Wow Jake….you’re really that brave huh.
So what? That’s what I feel. We were taught not to lie, so better admit than be humiliated.
But I was humiliated, so humiliated that it all started my rebellious acts in school.
Who wouldn’t be? A girl, admiring a girl. That’s a headline. Hmmmmm a taboo.
It was the turning point, because of what happened, she was very guilty and full of remorse and I used it as an advantage.
One day I asked her for a date.
I’ll forgive you for what you have done if you’ll watch a movie with me, I told her
Ask permission from my sister, she told me.
She thought I’d back out.
That night I rode my father’s motorcycle and went to the neighboring town and
visited Cora.
I asked permission even from her parents to allow Cora to watch movie with me.
Who wouldn’t agree? of course they would..I’m a girl…silly..That was an edge.
Strike one Jake…you have your ball rolling.
Finally the date I was waiting for arrived. Damn, I was so excited while waiting for her at the terminal. I wished I knew how to smoke then, I was so nervous. But in my mind I constantly repeated what I know I should do on that day.
She’s going to be mine. Ill brand her as mine..
A timid Cora alighted from the jeepney, I knew she was so nervous. I took her hand and ask her if she was, she nodded, don’t worry, me too, I told her
and we both laugh. The mood lightened up.
I bought a ticket for two and before we entered the dark and wide movie house I bought us some snacks.
I felt like a man during that time, of course I had to be a gentleman.
I chose the uppermost corner far from the other seats. She didn’t complain.
We sat without exchanging words from each other.
I could almost hear the beating of our hearts. The air conditioning was in full blast but still I felt it was hot because I was perspiring. I am aware of her deep breathing and when I touch her hands it was wet with perspiration.
Cora, you know I love you don’t you?
I feel like a stalker admiring you from afar but that can’t go on.Tell me now if you
feel something for me or not, so that when we leave this place we both wont regret it.
Cora, turned her sweet face and smile, I could almost imagine how her rosy cheek and dimples complement each other but I can’t see that because it was dark.
I wouldn’t be here if I don’t like you Jake.
That answer made me feel like a grand prize winner in a contest.
I hold her hand for a while and feel the heat it emits and rub her palm slowly with my fingers.
She took a deep breath as if I’m giving her a new sensation which I don’t know what.
We are both virgins, any new feeling is an experiment. If it feels good go for it.
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