Part 1 I started to be aware of sex when I was only 10 years old. Whenever I go to my parents room to wake them up, I see that my parents were under the blanket and I could hear my mother’s moan and slurping sounds made by my father as he eats and fucks my mom. I was wondering what was happening under the blanket, because later on I will see the blanket move up and down and then collapse with my father’s low moan. Hmm. I would have enjoyed the thought if I understood what was happening then. I started to play with myself when I was 12, touching my private part and rubbing it in the wall of the toilet. Then I just squeeze my pussy by crossing my legs and then on to an orgasm. I frequently played with myself till high school. Then I found that my elder brothers were keeping porn magazines underneath their clothes. I accidentally found those when I put their freshly-ironed clothes. From then on, whenever I go home after school, and the maids were busy, I sneaked to their room read and see a couple of pictures and played with myself to satisfaction. One day, I was going to do that again, when I heard some moaning noise in my oldest brother’s room. The door was not closed tightly so I peeked in and I saw him with his hands holding his big member, stroking it up and down, while moaning. That was the first time I saw a penis…it was long, big and red. I went to my room and started playing with myself too. I had a boyfriend when I was in fourth year high school, 16 years old. I knew he was hot because he was telling me stories of how he fucked his former girlfriend, but he never touched me. The only thing we did was hold hands and kissed me on the cheek. We talked of our dreams of getting married and having four kids, which I disagreed totally because I only want two. He would look in my eyes caress my hands and say that we will fulfill our dreams and grow old together. When we parted ways because we were both going to college in different cities, he kissed me full in the mouth – the first and the last from him. So this was my first, young love. I had my first introduction to sex with my second boyfriend, while I was in fourth year college. His gentlemanly ways, his special attention to me even in the company of others made me so important, and I felt it. He was courting me when I knew that he already has a girlfriend. Later, the girlfriend told me that it is ok to for me to have him since she got another one which he truly loves. She even told me that he is worth keeping because he is really good in sex. That gave me more interested to this guy so I said yes to his prodding. One time, we went walking around the dimly lit campus and he guided me to a dark part of a school building. He said he was feeling so horny and would like to show me his love. So he started kissing me on the lips…really deeply. As this is my second kiss, after a long time, I did not know what to do. He opened my mouth with his tongue and sucked all of my mouth. It was so good. We proceeded on lapping at each other with open mouth and sucking each others’ tongue. He stopped and told me that I learn very fast. The kissing made me hot and my knees started to buckle and I begged him already to stop because we were standing-up for a long time. We sat down on the floor of the building and talked some more about the kiss and how we loved each other. We walked home after that. When I reached home, I found that my panties were soaking wet and my pussy has this slimy clear fluid. I remember that I have this feeling whenever I read books with sex in them. Now I know that I was pretty aroused and would have liked more. A few days after, my bf and I walked around the campus again, on to the same dimly lit building. We proceeded on kissing which I know now after the last experience and then he proceeded on putting his hands under my shirt, over my bra. He caressed my breasts while kissing and sucking my lips. Oh it was so good. I felt that I was in heaven and did not notice that I was opening and closing my thighs. We did it for quite a while until he noticed that we I was already trying to sit down again because the feeling was so good it made me weak in the knees. We sat down and he removed my bra and continuously caressed me while asking me whether it felt good. I said it is sooooo good. Then we sucked each other’s mouth again. That was the time when I saw the big bulge in his front. I touched it a bit and he said no..it will be dangerous to touch it. We pacified each other, talked a bit about the experience, and walked home. The next time we went out again, he took me further to our exploration. I knew he had sexual experience and would like me to learn how to do it properly. This time, as we kissed and sucked each other’s mouth, I unhooked my bra and he proceeded on caressing my breasts while my back was on the wall of the building. Then he put his knee in front of my pants and started rubbing it up and down the front of my pussy. It was so good and I could not contain my ecstasy. I grabbed him closer to me and asked me if I like it. It was so good. He then proceeded on running his finger in the front of my pants, and concentrated on the part where my clitoris is. I was still wearing my pants that was a bit tight, but I felt his finger very well. I grabbed his bulge and he did not wince this time. He was then running his finger in my front and I was massaging his bulge up and down. After wards I felt him shudder and he let out a big moan..he had an orgasm. He said that it has been a long time since he had fucked someone and he would like to do that to me one time. He knew that I was already wet because the panty beneath my pants was moving more easily now. This was the extent of our exploration for a couple of months. I graduated from college while he was still in junior year. I moved to a co-ed apartment while looking for a job. Our exploration were always up to necking and caressing each other with our clothes on. His father decided that he is not fit for the course he is taking so he has to move back to Manila in his senior year. Our togetherness became limited to a once in a week tryst. Sometimes, because it is hard to go back to Manila, he stays in our apartment overnight. One night, he told me to stay longer downstairs so we can talk more. We were arm in arm in the sala, telling stories and how we missed each other. I was only wearing my house duster and so when he kissed me he was able to get to my panties immediately. My duster was a bit loose so he was able to push it up and he kissed and sucked my boobs too. He was like a baby with his tongue licking my nipples and then covered it with his mouth to suck. It was so good. I was drunk with happiness and started moaning as he continued on. I was calling his name and telling him how good that felt. He was kissing and sucking my nipples alternately while he caressed my pussy and my clitoris. I was immediately wet as he continued on with his caresses. Sometimes, his hands went from my boobs to my pussy alternately, while kissing me deeply. This was the first time he was able to hold and caress my body without any clothes on. We enjoyed it a lot, because he was so happy to see how smooth and soft my body is, how red my nipples are. We ended up holding each other on the couch, him on top of me and all over me for a long time. I tried to free his bulge from his pants to touch him, but he still declined. It can wait, he said, all he wants is to make me happy whenever he comes and visit me. I always look forward to his visits because I know that he will be making me happy every time. He now knows by then that Friday evenings is the best time to visit me since my house mates will not be there. Our sex exploration became hotter and hotter each time, and one time, he cannot contain himself anymore. He was so hot, his bulge was very big, but still he did not open his fly. At the height of our caresses, he said that he will do something that he knows will make me happier. I just had my evening shower and had just put on my house dress, and fresh underwear. He said that I smell so good so he started kissing and sucking me all over. He started with my lips, sucking my tongue, kissing my eyes, biting my ears and back to my mouth again, while one of his hands was freely caressing my breasts. It made me so hot and I was flinching with his titillations, and my thigh were opening and closing at the same time. He pushed my clothes up and, unhooked my bra and sucked my breasts and nipples. I was really in heaven trying not to moan load because my house mates might know. Then he put his hand in my panties and caressed my pussy, then he suddenly put a finger inside my pussy. It was easy because, the finger just slided in because of the wet passage. It gave me an electric shock. He stopped his kisses and looked at me and asked how it feels, and I said it is sooo good. So he proceeded to putting his finger in and out or my pussy which made it much, much wetter. My pelvis started moving up and down too with the rhythm of his finger. He liked the way I responded and told me that I learn very fast. It went on and on then suddenly I pushed his finger deep into my pussy and I gave a big moan with orgasm. His finger hit something hard and I winced a little. He was grinning from ear to ear telling me that this is the first time that I showed him how much I enjoyed it. And the thing that hurt a bit is my hymen and he knows that he should be gentle because I was still a virgin. He pulled his fingers from my pussy and showed me the white cum I secreted. He put his finger in his mouth, then left some for me to taste. I was so spent that night but I felt I need to have more. He still did not want me to see his bulge and I was so pissed. Until one, day, he told me that he cannot continue on with our arrangement anymore because his father found out about his frequent visits to me and warned that he will cut off his allowance if he continues on visiting me. He cannot afford the expense of visiting me anymore. So we cried so much about the imminent parting. We promised to write each other and wait for him to finish his university and we will work together in Manila and get married. So our last night was spent with a lot more emotion than before. He consoled me with his kisses and caresses and I was ready to give him all of myself and to show him how much I care for him. As it was already late at night, and all of my housemates were already sleeping, I went to the shower to get ready for bed. I thought, he already went to the boy’s room, but when I came out of the shower, he was still in the living room waiting for me. He stood up and went to me, kissed my whole face and my mouth, all at the same time….as if getting all what he could, with the anticipation of being parted for a long time. He then caressed my pussy with my panty on and then my boobs, still standing up. We headed to the couch where we continued our caresses. Saying over and over again how much we love each other and how much we will miss each other. I laid on the couch while he was on top of me as he touched, kissed, and caressed my body, and later on fingering me, putting his fingers in and out of my pussy that made me wet and ready for more. We could already hear his finger making plok plok sounds as it goes in and out of my pussy. I suddenly pushed his finger deeper with my first orgasm. He was so happy and proud that he made me happy that night. I rested a while and started kissing him while groping his bulge, hoping to return the favor. He agreed for me to open his fly and then he removed his pants. He was only in his briefs and shirt when he told me that he will agree to take off his brief if I agree to remove my panties. I immediately said yes, so he proceeded to remove my panties. I was about to remove his briefs when he told me to wait. He looked at my pussy for a long time then opened my thighs and dived into my pussy. Oh my God, I was so shocked. He kissed my pussy as if kissing my lips, sucking and lapping at it with gusto. I cannot control my self so I moaned and moved my pelvis up and down, while pushing his head deeper into my pussy. I was calling his name not to stop because it felt wonderful..hmmm. I repeatedly said how much I will miss it when he leaves me. His tongue went to the sides of my pussy, then inside my hole and then his mouth sucked my clit with a slurping sound, over and over again. It went on and on until I gave my second orgasm with a long shudder and sigh. It was sooo good. He sucked the white cum from my pussy and kissed my mouth deeply again, transferring my sweet, white, cum from my pussy to my mouth. I loved it. This time, I seriously begged him to put his penis into mine as I think I was all ready…wet and hot. But he said after I give him a blow job he will do that. So I took off his briefs and there I saw the thing that eluded me for more than a year. The long, 7 inch penis that I wanted to see, hold, love, and put inside my pussy. Finally, I would have it, or so I thought. I proceeded on holding it, and he said to move my hands around it up and down, and so I did. A small amount of fluid came out of it and I thought he peed? He said no, it is my pre cum. It made my hand job easier as my hands went up and down. Then he said to put it in my mouth to make it wetter, and I did. I moved my head up and down and licked it, sucked it, and then suddenly he moaned. I let him out of my mouth and looked up at him while holding his cock and then he cummed all over my hand. I felt so dirty because I thought he truly peed this time. He laughed and he said, he had his orgasm with a lot of white cum. I am so happy to see that I made him cum. But he already looked spent, so when I asked him again to please fuck me now because I am ready, he said to wait a while because he needed to re charge. So he slept, and I did too on the couch, with me holding his member, and with his finger inside my pussy. It’s a good thing we woke up before anybody in the house could see us. We showered together, held and caressed each other, he sucked my breasts and my pussy briefly, me slurping his penis briefly as if saying goodbye. After he left that day, we only exchanged letter once, but never saw each other again. He was my second love, my first sexual awakening, but without sexual fulfillment at the age of 21.