AUTHOR’S DIARY: Heartache

Author Name: kathy | Source: pinoyliterotica.com

Whose fault is it if a leaf fell from a tree? The wind that blew it? The tree which let the leaf fall? Or the leaf itself which didn’t hold on and left with the wind?

Love is bitter sweet. When you’re feeling blue ang tagal ng oras. Nakakainip ang bawat sandali. Nakakatamad magtrabaho and all you (I) want is magisip at tumingin sa malayo. Ang araw at gabi ay parehas. Ang kulay ng mga ulap ay hindi nag iiba. I am struggling for love, yes I am. Two years has passed and I never thought this could happen again. Magkaiba ang rason pero parehas ang pakiramdam. You have sleepless nights. Hindi ka na nawawalan ng eyebags. Bigla na lang magwawala puso mo once maalala mo yung pain. Kahit korni yung love song nakakarelate ka at nagiging favorite mo na once you listen to it and isinapuso yung message ng song. Favorite ko na ngayon, Silent Sanctuary’s songs haha..Hayy….:-(

Uhm..I don’t drink that much, not my vice. Pero ang sarap uminom kapag may problema. Madulas sa lalamunan ang alak. Yes, hindi nawawala yung problema kahit ilang bote pa inumin mo but then you tend to be happy kahit for a short time lang.

I am a sinner and a saint of love and anyone in this world na hindi? Is this the reason why love is accompanied by pain? Fuck, because of love I tend to be mushy! My friends and my classmates even told me that I am a hopeless romantic. Haha… Ang dali sabihin na move on, forget, but then I can’t. I was not able to kahit gusto ko. Damn! Hang out with friends: kahit araw arawin ko I still feel empty. Bakit ang hirap makalimot sa pagkakataong ito. Whose fault is it if a leaf fell from a tree? The wind that blew it? The tree which let the leaf fall? Or the leaf itself which didn’t hold on and left with the wind? You know I fight.

“If you leave me now, you take away the biggest part of me.” Waahh..karelate much!

Now, where do I go from here? Hindi ko alam kung anong story ‘to but I just want to share my thoughts to the community that has been a part of me. I may not be able to express my words technically correct but then masaya ko that some people of you still appreciate it. My gratitude will be forever yours.

-Kathy