Why is it so hard to say goodbye to the ones we love? Is saying “Goodbye” as hard as saying “I love you” ? Or is it harder?
Is it because we don’t want to hurt that person? Or we just don’t want to hurt ourselves?
Or maybe we’re just afraid that we might not be able to stand for it.We’re afraid that after saying goodbye,we’ll find ourselves running back to that person.
But what if we can no longer go back even if we wanted to?
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In a private room of a Japanese restaurant,
“Why are you doing this to me? Anong kasalanan ko sayo para saktan mo ko ng ganito?” Tears roll down Karen’s cheeks as she begs for an answer.
“I’m sorry,I’m really sorry.I can’t tell you now pero I’m doing this all for you.” Xander’s head was just bowed down.Tears are also starting to fill his eyes.
“All for me? Pinagpalit mo ko sa iba and it was for me?” Cries Karen as she wipes her tears.
“I’m sorry.Maiintindihan mo rin when the right time comes…” He closes his eyes to stop his tears from falling.
“I know na malaki yung atraso ko sayo. I have been very busy.I know masyadong kulang yung time na binibigay ko sayo.Pero you know na I’m doing my best to make it up to you everytime we meet.Bakit mo nagawa sakin to?”
“I’m really sorry Karen.I’m really sorry…We are in a long distance reletionship,maraming bagay na nangyayari in a week or two na hindi tayo nagkakasama.I’m sorry…”
“I have been loyal to you.Pero ikaw? You always say you love me.”
“I really love you.I’m sorry…”
“Puro ka sorry,puro ka sorry.Wala ka na bang alam sabihin kundi sorry???”
“I’m sorry kung puro sorry lang yung nasasabi ko sayo sa ngayon.Maiintindihan mo rin ako one day…”
“Bakit hindi pa ngayon? I don’t know kung panong para sa kabutihan ko yung ginawa mo.Pinalitan mo ko habang tayo pa.”
“I can’t tell you now…”
“I’m willing to listen.Bakit hindi mo pa sabihin ngayon para matapos na? You’re only hurting me more…”
“I’m sorry…”
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Just over a month ago,in a private room of a hotel…
“Oooohhhh sweetie,sige pah.I’m cumming…Aaahhhh I love you sweetie…”
Xander’s face is burried between Karen’s thighs,licking all the sweet juices oozing out of her pussy.
Then Xander positioned himself on top of her.Aimed his hard cock at her hole and slowly slid it in.
“Aaaaahhh…” They both moaned as they felt each other’s warmth.
Xander started to move.Slowly thrusting in and out of Karen’s wet pussy.He kissed her lips,sucked her tongue as his movements gain speed.
The bed started to rock.It’s hinges creeking as the lovers plunge deeper into their sensual desires…
Xander slids his left hand under Karen’s back,while his right hand was on the bed for support.He carefully raised her to a sitting position.Karen now sits on his lap.She slowly moved up and down.While Xander starts to kiss her breasts.
He licked one nipple while teasing the other with his playful finger.Karen can’t help but moan.The pleasure she’s now receiving is too much to bear.She hugged his head,burrying his face deeper into her breasts as she grinded her pussy while his hard cock is deep within her.She screamed in pleasure as she reached another orgasm…
Xander felt the clenching of her pussy around his hard cock.He laid her down again and raised one leg to his shoulder.He started thrusting fast.The bed now rocking harder,creeking louder.
Xander now nears his climax.He groans as he thrusts wildy in and out of her.Karen also getting wild with their new pace.She keeps on turning her head side to side.She clenches onto the mattress but it’s not enough.She cupped her wobbling breasts and started squeezing them.Her moans now starting to turn into screams.
She suddenly felt something warm explode inside her as Xander’s thick cum squirts out of his cock.But he kept thrusting wildly until Karen screamed again of her third orgasm…
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A few weeks after their intimate moment,
“Sweetie is there something wrong? Parang matamlay ka?” Asks Karen.
“Wala Hon,I’m just tired.Sige,I’ll go my way na…” He kisses her on the cheeks and started to walk away.
She held him by the arm, “Sweetie I know there’s something wrong.Why don’t you tell it to me? Maybe I can help…”
“Kaw talaga Hon. There’s nothing wrong.Pagod lang talaga ko.Don’t worry yourself.” He held her hand and gave it a gentle squeeze.
“Sure ka Sweetie?”
“Yes I’m sure.” He gave her another kiss,this time on her forehead.Then he whispered “I love you so much.Always remember that…”
“I love you too Sweetie.”
And they parted ways…
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A week after their last meeting,
They set to meet in a restaurant.Karen cancelled all her appoinments because she’s really excited to see her love.She arrived earlier so she saw Xander as he entered.And she was surprised…
“Hi.Kanina ka pa?” Asked Xander.
“Di naman.Who’s she?” She was staring at the lady beside Xander,whose hand was holding Xander’s arm.
“Ahm Karen,si Sarah.Sarah si Karen.”
“Hi.” Greets Sarah.
Karen just nodded.She stared at the lady standing beside Xander.She’s pretty and it’s easy to tell that she has forein blood in her.
She looked back at Xander. “You never said that you’re going to take someone with you.” Her heart now starting to beat fast.
Xander gave a seat to Sarah and he took another chair and sat beside her.This made Karen’s heart beat even faster.She something bad is going to happen.Aleast to her.
She gathered all her strength to open her mouth and ask…
“What’s this?” She asked in a the calmest voice she could pull out of her throat.
“Kumain ka na ba? Would you like to order something first?” Xander asked in return.
“I asked you,what’s the meaning of this? Bakit ka may kasamang babae sa date natin at bakit ka sa kanya tumatabi?” She asked in a now louder voice.
Xander took a deep breath and released a sigh…
“Ok.I’ll go straight to the point…”
Karen held her breath.Trying to prepare herself for something she already have a hint what…
“Sarah is 9 weeks pregnant…” Xander started.
“By me…”
Silence…
It was almost a whisper but it came like thunder into Karen’s ears.Her eyes started to moist.She bit her lower lip but a whimper still escaped from her throat.She looked at him,he evaded her stare.Then at Sarah whose head was bowed low.
“So that’s what’s wrong…” Was all she could say.
She picked up her bag and stood up.She walked for the door but he held her by the arm…
“Karen…”
“I’m ok.Please let me go…” She tried to release her arm from his grip but Xander did not let it go.
“I said let me go!” And gave him a slap on the face.She stared at him but he couldn’t meet her stare.So he just let go of her arm…
She ran towards the door and went out.Tears now flowing uncontrollably down her face.She was gasping for air…
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Xander just stood there.His head bowed low.People in the restaurant are now staring at him.He grabbed Sarah’s hand and led her out of that place when someone called from behind…
“Sir yung inorder po nung sumampal sayo hindi pa bayad!” Yelled the waiter.
He took out his wallet and pulled out a 500 peso bill and placed it on the nearby table.Then they headed for the door…
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Karen was miserable for days after that incident.She can’t believe this has happened to her.After everything they’ve been through.Just when she thought that their relationship was strong.Just when she thought she had loved the perfect man.Just when she thought that he loved her too.That he was loyal to her.
She would find out that he has been cheating all along.That everything he had shown her were fake and everything he had told her were lies…
For more than a week she was like an empty shell.She goes to work,does her job,but talks to no one.Not even her friends could comfort her.She eats while staring at nothingness.
After work she goes straight to her apartment.Where she would just lay down on her bed and stare at the ceiling.Just stare at it thinking of nothing.
Her mind is so tired of thinking about everything that has happened that whenever she tries to think of it again,her mind would just go blank.Until tears start to roll down her eyes and she starts crying again until she falls asleep…
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After days of crying and mourning for her broken heart,she just thought she needed to talk to Xander about what happened.She needed an answer.She wanted to know what made him do it.Sh knew she has imperfections but she knew it wasn’t a problem.Not to Xander.
She can’t believe this has happened all of a sudden.Just weeks ago everything seems to be perfect for the two of them…
She gave Xander a ring and they agreed to meet in a Japanese restaurant.
It was exactly 9pm.Xander was already there when she arrived.It was a small room with a low table in the middle.A typical Japanese dining room.
When she saw him,she couldn’t believe how he has changed.He looked as if he hasn’t eaten for days.He also looked pale.There are dark areas under his eyes.It seems he has been awake since the last time they met.
There was a pinch in her heart upon seeing him.But she also felt that he deserves to be like that after everything he has done to her.
But she missed him a lot.She wanted to wrap her arms around him and kiss him but she knew she shouldn’t do it anymore…
There they talked.She asked for an answer.She begged for it.But all Xander could ever say was “sorry”…
She entered that place hoping for an answer and she left it still clueless of what had really happened…
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She is now outside on the streets,waiting for a cab.She left him in the restaurant when she knew she wouldn’t get any answer from him.
She was still thinking about it when rain suddenly poured without notice.And it’s starting to pour hard.
But she did nothing to cover herself.Nor did she run for a shelter.She just stood there,as if letting the rain drown all the pain in her heart and hide the tears in her eyes.
It’s good to feel the little droplets of water falling on her head,shoulders and face.Her clothers are starting to get soaked.She’s starting to get cold but it was nothing compared to the emptyness she’s been having in her heart for days…
Then suddenly she felt the rain had stopped pouring on her.She looked left and right but saw that it’s still raining on the streets.Then she looked up and saw an open umbrella over her head.She quickly turned around and…
“Xander…?”
To be continued…