Trying To Forget

Author Name: succubus | Source: pinoyliterotica.com

Hi, I just tell my story. Maybe it will help me forget.. So here it goes…

Im married with kids. My story started when I met someone over irc.

It was a very boring day, wala sa bahay ang mga anak ko, so out of boredom tried chatting at irc. Chatting there brings back memories when I was still in college. Anyway, so chat dito chat dun, suddenly someone caught my attention. He just said “HOY” all caps pa ha. “Anong ginagawa mo dito ha?” in my mind all I was thinking was, huh? . So sagot ang lola  mo, “Do I know you?” reply naman si gago. “Nope but I know it will get you’re attention” . Well it did and it made me laugh. So to make the long story short, we chatted almost everyday. He knows that Im married and hiwalay naman sya sa kanyang asawa. As days turns to weeks i felt happy. I admit may problema kami ng asawa ko pero I try not to think about it. Hindi kasi sya ung sexual na tao. Mas madalas pa nga akong labasan sa daliri ko kaysa sa titi nya. hahahahaha. And so weeks pass and I started to fall for the guy. Until one time kausap ko sya sa phone ng all of a sudden he ask.

Guy: hmmm can I be totally frank with you?

Me: sure, mas gusto ko nman ng mag pakatotoo ka eh.

Guy: Im feeling something. Na matagal ko ng di nararamdaman ulit.

Me: ah? baka kabag lang yan.. hahahahaha.

But I know what his referring to, I just dont want to hear it kasi hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko sa kanya.

Guy: ayan ka na naman sa defense mech mo eh. lagi kang nag papatawa when Im trying to tell you something.

Me: pwedeng wag mo na lang ituloy? kasi hindi ko ri

Guy: I LOVE YOU.

Me: I cut off ba ko habang nag sasalita ha?

Guy: Sorry. sobrang daldal mo kasi eh. did you hear what Ive said?

Me: ha? ano ba yun? Love? hindi ko alam yun. nakakain ba yon?

Guy: Hay naku there you go again! seryoso ako. pwede ba for one minute just stop trying to make me laugh.

Hindi ako makasagot. I dont know what to say. Im married for crying out loud. Kasalanan to, mali ito, malaking kagaguhan tong ginagawa ko. Those were just the things na paikot ikot sa utak ko. BUT at the back of my mind, shit!!!!! Mahal nya rin ako. I was so freaking happy sa narinig ko feeling ko asa high school ako yung tipong first kiss or first hug basta lahat ng first. Yung butterfly in the stomach na feeling. shocks!! I so miss the butterfly in the stomach!!

Guy: Sabi ko na eh, tahimik ka na. Dapat pala nanahimik na lang ako eh.

Me: ha? ah. eh. mali to.

Guy: Dont you think na di ko alam yun. Dont worry wala naman akong hinihingi na kapalit eh, I just want to get it off my chest. But Im still me, andito pa rin ako pag kailangan mo ng mabubuntungan ng sama ng loob mo sa asawa mo.

Me: thanks. I really dont know what to say.

Guy: Can I ask kung ano nararamdaman mo para skin?

Ito ang tanong na ayaw kong sagutin. I dont know what to say. Parang gusto kong mag karong ng super power at lumipad para lang lumayo. hehehehe.

Me: Pwede bang wag ko na lang sagutin yung tanong mo.

Guy: alam ko na ung sagot sa tanong ko.

Me: ha? bakit mind reader ka ba ha? dont tell me nakikita mo iniisip ko at over the phone pa ha.

Guy: hay naku kulit mo talaga!!!! but thanks. kasi alam ko mahal mo rin ako?

Huh? How did he know? May hidden camera ba dito sa kwarto at nakikita nya lahat ng ginagawa ko?

Me: ha? okey ka lang?

Guy: simple lang naman eh kung wala straight forward mong sasabihin na wala db? Pero hindi mo sinagot eh. Nag hehesitate kang sabihin kung ano talaga nararamdaman mo. So….. Mahal mo rin ako.

Shit!!! Di ako maka react, ganun na nya ko kakilala pra alam kung anong iniisip ko.

Me: Ok for argument sake lets say oo. So? Wala naman tayong magagawa eh Im married. Youre separated. Magulo masyado yun.

Guy: sabi ko naman di ba wala akong hihingin. I just want to be completely honest with you.

Me: so?? what now?

Guy: wala same pa rin. mag papatawa ka pa rin. tatawa naman ako. the difference lang is you know that i love you and i know that you love me too.

Me: I need to go na muna. I need to think.

At dun nag simula ang lahat. From there on mas naging iba na pag uusap namin over the phone.

Guy: Hi, na miss kita ha. pag weekend talga hindi kita makausap. pa kiss nga..

Me: syempre family day un eh. kiss k dyan. sapak gusto mo ha?

Guy: ito naman kiss lang kahit sa noo masaya na ko.

Me: noo? ano ko lola? hehehehe

Guy: oo mano po lola?

Me: anong mano po kapal mo naman.

Guy: oh ano na? kiss ko san na?

Me: mwah!! ayan kiss.

Guy: oh san naman dumapo yang kiss mo

Me: ay? may ganon pa talaga?

Guy: kainis naman tong taong to. saan nga? tinatanong kita.

Me: kahit san!! basta manahimik ka lang.

Guy: hahahahahaha.. wag kang ganyan baka di mo magustuhan kong san ko ilagay yang kiss mo?

Me: ha? bakit san mo ba ilalagay ha aber?

Guy: sa dick ko, sa titi ko….

Me: Ano???

So para masaya mambibitin ako. Sa susunod na lang yun kasunod. hehehehehehe. Sorry wala pang erotic events. Sa susunod try ko ng ilagay. But please keep in mind that this is my first post, just want to try if I can do it. Thanks…